Sunday, 14 January 2018

What a difference a year makes


One year ago, I didn't have a job. 
I had no idea that I would soon find my dream job in a hospital where all the doctors look like McDreamy (it's true! and one of the perks of the job 😍).

One year ago, I cursed less and worried more. 

Our living room walls weren't yellow yet, and we didn't have a single palm tree. 
I also didn't have my awesome pink walls

One year ago, we only had one dog in the house. 
Now it's three. 
We didn't have any cows, and only two horses. 
Now we have six cows, and five horses. 

One year ago, we barely knew anyone in our new town. 
Today, we received an unexpected phone call from someone in the neighbourhood, offering his help upon hearing of Rich's illness. We have new friends that help out if needed, and old ones that phone us regularly to see how we are doing.

One year ago, the Lyme bug was already in Rich, but peacefully dormant, as it had been for over 50 years. 
Now we feel that we have reached - and left behind! - the peak of his illness, and are on the way to recovery. 

One year ago, I had never worn fake eyelashes before. 
On New Year's eve I did, complete with a full face of make-up. It won't become a regular occurrence in my life, but it was a great experience. 

One year ago, I was just beginning to work towards envisioning my dream life. 
Now I'm in the middle of manifesting my dreams into reality!

One year ago, I thought I couldn't be any happier. 
Turns out, I was wrong. 

There's an undercurrent of excitement in my life these days. Despite (or because?) of Rich being sick, despite (or because?) of all the extra work, despite the January bleakness - life feels exhilarating and full of possibilities. It's hard to explain, but these days, I truly feel like anything is possible.  

I have been connecting more with others than I ever have in my life, IRL and online. For someone who was afraid of people her entire life, this is a new and extraordinary experience. Opening yourself up to the world and the people in it comes with gifts I never expected: kindness, support, community. Investing yourself in others is more rewarding than I ever thought possible. 

That's the biggest difference to one year ago: I'm opening myself up to people more than ever before. 
And it's the wildest - and most satisfying - ride I have ever been on. 

Life truly is fucking fantastic. 
And so is a well-placed F-bomb 😂💣

Have a brilliant week, wild ones!

xoxo Miriam


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  1. I can feel the positive energy oozing from this post! And next year, you can add, "you didn't have a she shed. but you do now!" Eeeeeek!!!

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    1. Mary, you have no idea how excited I am for my she shed. I literally think about it every single day! It will be glorious 💛💜

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  2. You are living your best life right now! I love it.

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    1. It's messier than my fluffy imagination, but also more surprising and wild and beautiful.

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  3. What a year you guys have had! Here’s to 2018 bringing amazing and wonderful changes.

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    1. It's a weird thing, having your dreams come true. There's still the daily little annoyances like not wanting to get up when the alarm goes off, bickering about the garbage overflowing, or being bored and fed up with the tediousness of winter.
      But once in a while, out if nowhere, you'll get a moment of reflection: having coffee in the sun-flooded living room in the morning, watching the cows from the window; feeding at night, with millions of stars twinkling in the sky; or having your love hug you from behind,whispering "I'm happy" in your ear, while you both watch the lambs play.

      Those are the moments when you realize: life doesn't get any better than that.

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