Creating my happy life on the other side of fear.

Sunday, 28 February 2016

Project 36

During the last few hours of the old year, on the way to work, I was struck by an idea. Ever since reading Elizabeth Gilbert's fantastic book Big Magic (seriously, read it, it's life-changing in the best way possible!), I am more aware of the presence of ideas around me. I got a first conscious glimpse of it when I started blogging three years ago, but nobody had ever put it in such powerful words like Liz did - that ideas are disembodied, energetic life forms. 

If you have been fortunate enough to be struck by a force that runs through your body like an electric shock - literally, that's what it feels like - you know what I'm talking about. It's an experience unlike anything else, and I had closed myself off to it for many years; believing that I was not a creative, but a practical person, who did her work conscientiously, yet not passionately. 

Oh, how I thank my lucky stars - or whoever else is responsible - that I let go of that foolish idea and expanded my horizon. Because, like Liz says, there is magic in this world, if you are willing to believe in it - and I am more than willing. 

Anyway, getting back to that last day of the year back in December. The idea that visited me was to take on a project in 2016: To try 36 new things. 36 because I am 36 years old, and I do appreciate the beauty of numbers that fit neatly into my life. 36 also because it so conveniently divides itself into 3 projects/ideas per month, which in the first light of exhilaration seemed completely manageable. 
I was thrilled and excited when that idea visited me, jotting down several projects at once - and then it all came to a screeching halt. You see, it looked like a lot of work. Why should I create more work for myself? Didn't I have enough on my plate with a job, farm, husband, dogs, family, an extra study course and the time-consuming hobbies I chose to indulge in?

I put my notebook away, thinking that nobody would care whether I did this project or not. And I was right: Nobody did. Except for one person: Me. 

The other night I was in a nostalgic mood, and I went through my 2015 Leonie Dawson workbook. I had ordered it because my friend Mariah recommended it, and it is a wonderful book: Full of inspiration and encouragement to write down your goals in order to reach them. 

One of the sections in the book is for you to write a list of 100 things you want to do that year. Do you know that I never managed to think of 100 things? That's a big number; I only managed to get up to 54. Just out of interest, I idly read through my goals, to see how many I had reached. 

The result surprised me: I crossed off 36 (there's that 36 again) of the 54 items. You may think that's nothing to write home about; after all, it's only 66%. But amongst the goals were some that I have had for years:
Consume more vegetables (we juice every morning since last April.)
Exercise regularly.
Being able to fold myself into lotus (something I never thought I would be able to do).
There were also many trivial ones: To see my favourite band live
Seeing Cirque du Soleil (something I had been dreaming of for many years, but never did until last December).
Growing my hair longer than it has ever been

Long story short: After seeing the goals I had realized last year (okay, some of them spilled into this year, but the result is the same), I knew: I had to do this. 
I firmly believe that life is about growth, new opportunities, and saying yes, and I need to push myself to do all these things. I like my comfort zone a little too much, and I am reluctant to step out of it; until I get bored that is, which is the point where I will do something stupid because I need to break out right this minute

Anyway, after much thought, I adjusted my project 36 to not only feature new things (because that would have been doomed to fail - I simply couldn't do it), but also to include the items I have been procrastinating for a long time (years, in some cases), stuff I would usually say no to, but decided to give a go, and yoga-related goals

Thus, there are four categories to my project: 
Say yes
Try something new
You know you want to
Crazy sexy yoga


1. To possible new job opportunities. Not that there are any, right now; but if there were, I want to be open enough to say yes to it. For a while there I was so happily ensconced in my little bubble, that I recoiled at the thought of anything new (new responsibilities, learning new skills, that sort of stuff). 
But that's not me! That was lazy-me, and I decided to get her out of the driver's seat of my life. She makes life comfy sometimes, but she's a terrible guide for life. Nothing great has ever happened without hard work. 
Update: I quit my old job on December 31. What happens next remains to be seen...

2. To my niece, who wants to come and stay with us in the summer. My niece is 13, and according to my sister, in the throws of teenage hormones, poor girl. (And poor sister, come to think of it.) To give everyone a break, and her the chance of a great adventure, I said YES when my sis asked me if her daughter could visit us. Voluntarily inviting a teenager into your home? I must be crazy ;-)

Update: She didn't come, but I visited her. My list, my rules, and it counts.

3. To travelling alone. I am going to Germany in April to visit family, and I'm determined to make at least one stop in a new city by myself. I've never done that! In 36 years! This has to change.
Update: In a completely unforeseen series of events, I travelled to two cities by myself: Walnut Grove and my old home town Aldergrove. Not exactly new cities, but close enough.

4. To travelling with others. To my surprise, 2016 is shaping up to contain more travel than I anticipated, and one of them is happening soon: A Bahamas cruise with two other couples. The last time we travelled with other people (who aren't family) was in 2008, so it's been a while. While it is a lot of fun, it also has its challenges, so I'm curious to see how it will turn out this time!
Update: Bahamas trip video here.

5. To wearing red lipstick. Do you know how empowering the right lipstick can be? 
I don't, but I'm about to find out. I pretty much never wear lipstick, but on extremely rare occasions I have slicked some on for outfit posts, and was surprised at how much I liked the look of it. Next step: Real life!  
Update: Nope.  

6. To a special photoshoot. I have an idea that I'm immensely excited about, but hesitant to discuss further just yet. All I want to say is that it's waaaaay out of my comfort zone, but at the same times feels right. Brave.
Update: Sort of. I had pictured doing a naked yoga shoot, but then chickened out. However, I did do a yoga photo shoot with my clothes on, and posted a few naked yoga photos on Instagram. Yoga has given me such a comfortable relationship with my body, once in a while I feel the overwhelming desire to share that. (Here and here.) Nobody is more surprised about this than I am. 

7. To learning new hairstyles. Now that I have the long hair I so desired, the next question is: What to do with it? I'm counting on you, Pinterest!
Update: I chopped my hair off in September, and after a period of getting used to it, I now love it. I'm curling and experimenting with new updos, it's so fun!

8. To asking for help. Do you know that I have an unreasonably difficult time asking for help? I tried to analyze myself, and what I came up with is that I'm so afraid that they may say no, that I'd rather not ask at all. Which, of course, is silly. You can't do it all alone, and you miss out on a lot of opportunities if you don't ask people who know better. So I'm learning to ask for help this year! What's the worst that can happen? If they say no, I'm no worse off than I was before I asked. You can do this, Miriam.   
Update: Still a work in process, but little victories give me hope: Most recently I asked our head radiologist for a reference (he had previously offered), and while my heart was beating a mile a minute and my palms were sweaty, I got through it. And he said yes!

9. To buying new underwear. My underwear drawer is in a sorry state of affairs. You may not know this about me, but I detest buying underwear. Absolutely hate it. Bras are even worse. The result of this dislike is that I own only three bras that are wearable, and even that is a lose definition of the term "wearable". (Let's just say that my white one is not really white any more, and my strapless one was bought during a time when I was still carded occasionally. Which hasn't happened in about a decade. It's been a while.)
So I have to put on my nicest pair of big-girl panties and go out to buy myself undies that I could get hit by a bus in. And not die of shame when the paramedics cut off my clothes.
Update: I did!

10. To buying socks as well. While my sock drawer is in slightly better shape than my underwear drawer, the keyword here is "slightly". Sock-buying is another activity I don't enjoy, so I wear the hell out of  the ones I own. It's starting to become embarrassing to take my shoes off, so it's time.
Update: I did!

11. To finishing this list. Gosh, this is even harder than I feared it would be. If you knew when I started this, you would be disgusted - or feel sorry for me, depending on your personality. It's been many, many days weeks of trying to find stuff for this project. The good news is, I will be able to cross this item off should I ever get to the end of it!   
Update: I did!

Try Something NEW

12. Karaoke. I have never done it, and I'm daring myself to try it at least once. 

13. Flying Trapeze. I've always wanted to try it! My friend and I promised each other that it will happen this spring. 

14. Learn how to shoot proper videos. The only "experience" in making videos is propping up my phone precariously and shooting poor-quality, short yoga videos. My camera has the capability of recording videos, and it's about time I take advantage of it! This vacation video and Rebecca's fun "A day in the life"-video are my inspiration.  
Update: Well, I may not have learnt to shoot "proper" videos quite yet, but I did make several videos! I'm totally giving myself that one. 

15. Not dying my hair. I'm still determined to pull off silver hair, and I've been growing out my last batch of hair dye for the past year. But sometimes, when I look in the mirror and the silver strands in my bangs seem to have doubled over night, I am sorely tempted to get them covered up. Whenever that happens I have to remind myself of Sarah Harris or Annika von Holdt. These ladies rock their silver hair like nobody's business, and I want to be just as confident with my changing colour!
Update: Success! I also cut off the last of my dyed hair, and now I'm all natural. Interesting side note: My post Grey: yay or nay? was the most popular post of 2016!

16. Meditation. It has been said that meditating will make you connect to your true self, and helps you discover all your inner-most secrets: What you desire, what you are meant to do, what makes you happy. Who wouldn't want that?
Update: Uhm, I tried, but gave up. Again. After reading Dan Harris' book "10% Happier" I tried it a few times, but so far I meditate best while doing something else: Walking, yoga, or driving. Does that count?

17. Guest post on other blogs. I want to branch out a bit more and try my hand on writing for others. I've had a couple of spotlights on blogs I paid for, but I want to write real articles.
Update: Only one, but it counts: I wrote the post How to publish a book (even if you have no idea what you're doing) on Helene's Blog in Between

18. Stop and think before answering a question. I tend to shoot from the hip, saying what's on my mind the second it pops in there. I want to learn to collect my thoughts and think over whatever it is the person has asked me, instead of having verbal diarrhea. I've agreed to things I didn't want to do way too often with my old approach - or the opposite, said no when I should have said yes - and I would like to learn to think first, speak second.
Update: Uhm - no? I don't think so. Let me stop and think about the question.

You Know You Want To

19. Stop rolling my eyes. I have a bad habit of rolling my eyes behind people's backs (I sincerely hope it's behind their backs, and not in front of them) when I'm annoyed. The good news is, nobody has to worry that their eyes will get stuck like that, which is what my grandma always told me when i was little. Mine would have been stuck a long time ago. It is a bad  habit though, and about time to break it. 
Update: Most definitely not. Still doing it, and my eyes still haven't gotten stuck in that position, mom. 

20. Be more patient. I include this point in any goal-setting and list-making of mine, because it is something I will probably have to work on my entire life.
Update: Actually, I think I am making progress with that one! Yoga is teaching me patience big time, and it's starting to work!

21. Declutter our basement. Our basement is a war zone. It needs a thorough decluttering and tidying up, and I won't do it unless it stares accusingly at me from a to-do list. As it is doing now! (Stop pestering me, I'll get to it.)
Update: Oh yes, I did. I decluttered it so well, I got rid of the entire basement! And the house surrounding it! As you all know, 2016 was the year where we sold our old place and found our dream home

22. Finally paint my kitchen cabinets. It's been on my mental to-do list for years. In 2016 it is going to happen.
Update: I did!

23. And my downstairs stair space. Or is it staircase? It's the tiny area before you go up the stairs. Kinda hard to explain. Either way, it's so small that it should take me less than an hour, yet I have been procrastinating forever. Can you sense a theme here with my home decorating?
Update: Yup, did that one too. 

24. Paint the inside of my kitchen cabinets? I'm on a painting-roll now, so why stop? I've always loved Elsie's cheery turquoise inside the cabinets, and would love to see a pop of colour when I take out a mug for my first cup of coffee in the morning. I'm envisioning yellow, like a ray of sunlight ... maybe?  
Update: Naw. 

25. Write that novel. Oh yes, I'm always thinking about that. A fiction novel is a whole other level from my little book last year, but I want to do it! I have visions of a diary-style book a la "Bridget Jones", but in a hospital- or farm-setting. Write about what you know, as they say.
Update: I am currently 12,790 words in. It's happening in 2017, baby!

26. Pay off my credit card. Sadly, that one is quite ambitious. And maybe also impossible. But I would love to see the balance on my statement show a big, fat zero!
Update: Due to the sale of our house, we were able to pay off all our debt. For the first time in our relationship, we are debt-free! It's still unreal. 

27. Find more creative ways to display photos. Photography is still a much-loved hobby, and finding new ways of displaying them around our home is a never-ending challenge. I did a scrapbook last year, have done multiple photobooks, had some printed on wood, canvas, or poster paper, or simply printed them out and framed them. I'd like to do something big like this photo wall - or maybe even that huge one?
Update: I created this gallery wall and I'm head over heels in love with it. 

Crazy Sexy Yoga

28. Go to a yoga class. I have been practicing exclusively by myself (and the dogs of course) for the past year, and it's my favourite way to practice. However, I do believe that it is beneficial to go to a class once in a while, not only to get feedback, but also to soak up the vibe from your fellow yogis. I want to get into the habit of integrating it into my yoga life.  
Update: I went to a yoga class taught by Kino!

29. Pincha Mayurasana. A forarmstand as solid and straight as demonstrated by Kino is my goal.
Update: I'm nowhere near Kino's level, but I made progress in 2016!

 Image found here

30. Legs behind head pose. Totally crazy, totally awesome.
Update: Hahaha, what was I thinking?

31. Mastering splits. Being a naturally inflexible person, this would be the ultimate achievement. As a believer in #practiceanditwillcome (one of my fave Instagram hashtags), it should be possible, right?
Update: I stopped practicing, so it's not happening yet. 

32. King pigeon pose.
Update: Not yet.

33. Handstand'Nuff said, I've been talking about it for a year now. Still no real balance to speak of, still my #1 goal.
Update: Practice, practice, practice.

34. Handstand press-up.
Update: Hahaha, what was I thinking?

35. After that, these mad handstand skillz from Kino:

Realistic? No. Damn impressive? Hellz yes!

36. That flow. Dream big, right? ;-)

Do you have any special goals this year? Please share in the comments!


Thursday, 25 February 2016

Project Sister Act

This week's style post is going to be different. And I'm super excited about it!
A little while ago I was contacted by Sheela, a fearless fashion blogger, who asked me if I would be interested to participate in a special project: Project Sister Act.

She created Project Sister Act because she wanted to take a stand against fashion "rules", particularly when they relate to age. No mini skirts after the age of 35, no bare arms after 40, no horizontal stripes for certain body types - who made these up, and why should we listen?
Sheela believes "that style knows no age boundary", and I wholeheartedly agree. 

Today I am part of six fashion-loving women, ranging in age from their teens to their 60s, and I'm representing the 30s age group. I have never had a problem with my age, and will declare loud and proud that I am 36 years old, have crow's feet and some silver highlights, and I feel great! 
Also, looking at my outfit, you know what I think of the "no mini-skirt after 35-rule" - I'm happily ignoring it ;-)

Our theme for today was red. Let's get started!

Me, 30s

Dress: ModCloth (not available any more; I found cute alternatives here or here); clogs: Lotta From Stockholm; over-the-knee-socks: old (similar)

So many different and fun interpretations for one style challenge! If you want to know more about where the clothes are from, click through to each lady's own blog. You should do this anyway, because they are all fierce!

Do you believe in following style rules, or in breaking them?



Nothing in this world is more complicated than people. At least for me.
When it comes to interacting with fellow humans, you basically have two choices: You can try your best to avoid them and live like a hermit, or you can tell yourself that you're stuck with them, and try to make the best of it.

Option A is much harder than you may think: We need other people for work, help, companionship. It's impossible to avoid them completely, unless you decide to move into the wilderness, where you probably won't survive for very long without any help. So that's out.

Option B it is then, which may appear like the obvious choice, but you know what? Mastering the skill of dealing effectively with others may take you a lifetime to learn.

I searched long and hard for a third option: A happy medium between hermit and social butterfly. Sometimes I think I finally got it: When I had a great day at work, interacting successfully with dozens of people with different personalities and having fun doing it, ending the day with a satisfyingly quiet night at home. Those are the days when I smugly tell myself that "why, you figured it out, Miriam! Life ain't as hard as you make it out to be, and people are fun."

But then there will for sure come days where everybody annoys you, people are unreasonably cranky, a thoughtless (or was it on purpose?) remark about lifestyle choices that are uncannily like yours hits a little too close to home, and you are sick of people.
Sick of how hard it is to say the right thing sometimes. Sick of being hurt, or hurting others inadvertently. Sick of having some people drop out of your life when you don't really know why, and others sticking around like glue when you'd rather see the back of them.
Sweater found here (and soon in my closet) 

I find nothing more challenging, exasperating, yet also rewarding and joyful than people. They surprise you, disappoint you, touch you, make your heart swell with love, make your blood boil with rage, and have the power to make you or break you.    

I have a gratitude journal where I write down all the small and big things in my life that make me happy. It's a habit that is surprisingly effective in finding joy every day! Looking through it, it struck me how often I manage other people in it. Because despite all my grumblings and misgivings, I am a big fan of the human race. There is a lot of kindness in people!

Here are a few moments that restored my faith in humanity and made my heart leap with joy:

That moment when someone gives you a surprise gift and a hug for becoming Canadian.

That  moment when someone cuts his break short to come and help you with a difficult task.

That moment when your car breaks down, and at least ten people stop and ask if you need help in the span of 20 minutes. One person went as far as to park her car, jump out and help direct traffic until the tow truck came. Did I mention that it was in the winter and freezing cold?

That moment when you receive the best reviews you could imagine. It warmed my heart and brought tears to my eyes.

That moment when you receive an email from a stranger, telling you how much they enjoy your blog.

That moment when friends invite you to their family dinner, because they know that you are alone at home.

That moment when someone tells you they love you.

That moment when someone shares his cupcakes with you.

That moment you buy a new cellphone, and the sales clerk tells you that you can use points (that you didn't even know you had) and get the phone for free.

That moment someone tells you that you are beautiful.

That moment someone tells you that you are doing a good job.

That moment when someone is happy to see you.

What are some of your moments that make you grateful for people?   


Tuesday, 23 February 2016

Yoga update

Sometimes I worry that you may get bored with me banging on about yoga so much. Is it too much? Or is it all in my head? I actually think about it about a thousand times more than I mention it, and often I think I will mention it but then I don't, so I'm not really sure how much I talk about it in the end. The thing is, I think about it a lot, and do it (almost) daily, so it is a big part of my life. 
I checked my yoga section on the top, and when I realized it has by far the least amount of posts on it, I felt immediately reassured. Seems like I go on about it more IRL than on the blog, so it's all good.

High time for an update then, right? 

First, let's take a look at a few pictures from the last two months:

Upward facing dog (Urdhva Mukha Svanasana)

We had snow for all of 5 minutes this winter. Obviously, I ran out to take some #snoga pics!

Flying Ninja. It's a fun arm balancing pose

Eagle pose (Garudasana)

Winter means lots of indoor practice. This is Top of the Ankles stretch (a variation on virasana)

Funky eagle pose

Side crane (Parsva bakasana)

I just took that one yesterday. Look at our snowdrops! Spring is close, I can feel it in my bones. 

And now, how about some progress pics?

Bow pose (Dhanurasana)

On the top, the normal grip; on the bottom, the much-coveted flip-grip. It requires a lot of  back flexibility and openness in the shoulders, which I don't possess yet. That's where my trusty infinity strap comes in!

Dancer's pose (Natarayasana)

Again, that flip grip. My bane and my desire. One day, I will hopefully manage it without the strap.

Crow pose (Bakasana)

Getting your arms as straight as possible and your knees waaay up into your armpits is the goal. I'm getting closer!

Eka Pada Koundinyasana 1 (one-legged Sage Koundinya's pose)

Fallen Angel pose

King Pigeon pose (Rajakapotasana)

This is a pose where your hips need to be open, your back has to be very bendy, and your shoulders are flexible. In the full pose, your head will touch your foot! It seems impossible now, but I know: with enough practice, it will happen.  

Bird of Paradise pose (Svarga Dvijasana)

Not much progress here, which might be because I almost never practice it. But look at puppy Nina! So cute. 

Extended Hand-To-Big-Toe pose (Utthita Hasta Padangusthasana)

Balance, open hips and hamstring flexibility are the main ingredients of this pose. None of these come naturally to me, but practice is starting to pay off. 

Last, but not least: A handstand update. Yes, handstand is still my main goal, and this year, it will happen!

Before I go, I'll leave you with a video that I sometimes watch for inspiration:

That's Joseph Encinia, the 2011 yoga world champion. Impressive, isn't he?

Happy Tuesday!


Monday, 22 February 2016

Why I put my life on the internet

I have been sharing my life on the internet for almost three years now. When you stop and think about it, it's a strange thing to do: Why expose yourself in that way? Why risk ridicule, criticism, people sniggering about you behind your back? Wouldn't it be safer to keep your life to yourself?

I grew up with a strong mentality of keeping all details of your life private. It went so far as being encouraged by our parents to have an "official" face and a private one: Showing your game face in public, not letting on how you really feel, what you are going through, what's on your mind and in your heart. 

It suffocated me. And it made me feel incredible lonely. I had issues I struggled with that made me feel like a freak. I couldn't stand my own company, because I felt like a despicable human being: For having the thoughts I did, for being selfish and not wanting to work in my parent's business, for not being satisfied with the life I had. I often felt irrationally angry or unspeakably sad and hopeless, and I didn't know why. But who could I talk to? I didn't have a "real" problem; I was simply "high-strung", "overly sensitive", a "drama queen". 

I would look at the people around me, in awe and at the same time dismayed at how they had it all together: They seemed to be in control, content, with no internal battles that kept them awake at night, questioning their own sanity. 

I felt like the loneliest girl in the world. 

I tried to be like them: To act like everything was okay, putting on my poker face, not letting anyone see what it looked like inside. 
I sucked at it. I also resented it. Why should I lie to the world? Why shouldn't they know when I didn't feel happy?

Those times of self-doubt and despair were thankfully broken up by - sometimes blissfully long - times of optimism and a joy for life. They saved me, and made me believe that I wasn't so screwed up after all; that I was normal, my biggest desire in the world. All I wanted was to feel like I fit in. 

Yet, I kept making decisions that interfered with that mundane goal. Or life interfered for me, messing it up with its own wicked sense of humour: When everybody partied until the wee hours, finally falling into bed exhausted at dawn, I had to get up to go to work, at my parent's farmer's market on Saturdays, and playing the organ at church on Sundays. None of my friends had to do that, and I was alternately weirdly proud and resentful of the fact that I did.    

When I didn't know what to do after school, I chose the most obscure career path I could think of. 

fell in love with a man who was not only 25 years older, but also the father of four children and married. 

I became a stepmother at the age of 23. 

I decided not to become a mother beyond that.

None of these experiences are that unusual. In fact, they are happening to thousands of people every day! 

But I didn't know that. 

I didn't know anybody personally who any of this had happened to. 

Over the years, I would meet the occasional person who had experienced a tiny piece of my own trials and tribulations, and the relief I felt was indescribable. Someone who understood! I would eagerly talk to them, swapping stories, feeling a warm glow of recognition and compassion inside of me.   
But those encounters were few and far between. 

It wasn't until I discovered blogs that this all changed. 

Blogging opened up an entirely new world for me. I found other women who decided not to have kids. During a time when I felt like the only one, those women were life savers. 

I also learnt that my terrible mood swings were due to a disease, and not at all my "fault". And I wasn't the only one: There were legions of others out there! One of the most honest and inspiring ones: Jenny Lawson, who wrote a bestseller about mental illness.

I learnt that by telling your story and putting it out there, not only will you help others who have similar problems, but you will become stronger. It's scary as hell - but once you have faced that fear, summoned up every last bit of courage inside of you and hit "publish" with shaking knees and sweaty palms, you will feel braver than ever.

Talking about your fear has a weirdly liberating effect: By calling it out, it loses its power over you. 

Part of fear's crippling hold is that you are worried that people will find out about whatever you think is wrong with you. You try to hide it, pretend that you are someone else, are always scared that somehow, someone will see your truth. 

By opening up about it, fear loses its evil power over you. The worst thing has happened: You have showed the world the real you. And you know what? 

The feeling of liberation is magnificent.

I found that by sharing my story openly, I finally learnt to love myself. Once you do, the approval of other people ceases to matter so much. Sure, it's nice to be liked by others - but it's more important to be liked by yourself. 

That's what blogging taught me. That's why I won't stop writing about my life. 

And you know what? 

You should try it. 


Friday, 19 February 2016

Thoughts I have when I'm sick

I have a cold. All week I have been feeling crappy, with low energy, lots of sneezing and blowing my nose, and a bit of a cough thrown into the mix just to add variety. Typical for a health care worker, I am good with patients, but not a good patient. Terrible, in fact. 

I thought it might be amusing to write down some of the weird thoughts I have when I'm sick. Yes? No? Maybe it's just the meds talking, I don't know what's fun any more. Well, whether you like it or not, here they are:

Sneezing feels good. Like a mini-orgasm.

But not when you're eating.

Oops, was that some rice flying out?

Yes, it was. 

My nose is on fire. 

My entire face hurts. 

Bless you, Penaten cream!

I have a white mustache now, but it's a fair price to pay for no more burning. 

Oh no, I ran out of tissues!

Gotta buy softer toilet paper. My nose doesn't like this one. 

I'm sick of sneezing. (Ha, see what I did there?)

I can't breathe through my nose. 

I can't taste my food. 

I should take advantage of it and eat all the healthy food I don't like. 

Naw, comfort food it is. 

How can one person produce so much snot? I must be setting a record here. 

Need more Penaten cream. 

Can dogs get infected by the human cold?

Maybe I should stop kissing them. 

But I can't, it's too hard. I need their love. 

Just googled it. The answer seems to be no. Phew!

Oops, just sneezed all over my computer. 

I'm gross.

When will it be over?

To all my fellow sickies out there, I feel for you! Let's raise our cups with hot lemon water and toast each other to a speedy recovery!



Thursday, 18 February 2016

Style: Dreaming of spring

It has begun: The time of the year where I will talk about spring like it's a long-lost lover. I yearn for it. I can't stop thinking about it, imagining what it will feel like, it's gentle caress on my bare skin...

*looks up, blushing furiously*

Sorry, I forgot for a minute that you are all here. 

It's true though: I'm done with winter. We broke up, and it's not me, it's you: You are too wet and grey, and I've had enough. We all have! 
So I'm doing what I do every year: Surround myself with flowers, to make our home nice and inviting for spring. Flowers are in our yard, on our kitchen table, and on my clothes. 

Spring, I am waiting for you!

Dress: ModCloth (not available any more; this one is oh-so pretty!); jacket: gift (similar); gumboots: Dunlop (they are heavy-duty farm boots: I've had them for years, and they are still 100% water proof and super warm. Not pretty, but essential for survival!); if you are looking for way cuter boots, how about these colourful polka dot ones? hat: H&M (similar

Please, spring, hurry up!

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