Wednesday, 13 March 2019

Lyme Disease Update

It's been 8 months since my last update about Rich's Lyme disease, and for the majority of that time everything has been really good!
In case you are new around here, let me give you a quick overview: my husband got very sick in the fall of 2017. He had intense joint paint, night sweats, chills, brain fog, insomnia, lost a ton of weight in a short amount of time, and deteriorated very quickly. After the worst 4 months of both our lives where no doctor could figure out what was wrong with him he finally got the diagnosis of Lyme disease.


Monday, 11 March 2019

Celebrate everyday

There is an old man who walks by my house in Princeton three times a day. He has a tiny white dog, old and slow, and he walks that dog all over the neighbourhood. I see them every day when I'm here, and I often wonder about his life. 
Does he have a wife or is he widowed? Does he ever go away or is he at home 365 days of the year? Is he happy? What will he do when his dog dies? I hope he will get a new one. 

I picture him at home, making coffee in the morning while talking to his dog, telling him how he slept last night and that he has to refill his prescription today, and that there is warmer weather in the forecast. When he makes lunch he gives his little friend some scraps, and after their lunch walk they have a nap together on the couch. He eats a pastry with his afternoon coffee every day and then they watch TV together. Once a week he plays cards with his buddies. 
It's a small life, I imagine, but a good one. He is content. 

Tuesday, 5 March 2019

When your brain threatens your marriage

Last month I was convinced that my marriage was in serious danger.
I spent all night crying, having terribly dark thoughts about separation, having to start over, and losing my best friend.
I was so worried that I actually contacted a counsellor to make an appointment for marriage counselling.

Had one of us cheated on the other?
Had we fallen out of love?
Had something bad happened?

No, nothing like that.

Wednesday, 27 February 2019

Peeing our pants

Remember when I foolishly proclaimed last week that spring is on its way? Yeah, I may have jumped the gun on that. But it's not my fault, it's the robin's - it lied. Robins are supposed to return when it gets warmer, but it must have been just as impatient as me (I get it, robin) and returned a tad early. Which I can also understand, since there's no place like home, right? Except right now I can think of plenty of places that are better than home, like Mexico, Hawaii, the south of Spain, California, Arizona ... you get the idea.

Sunday, 24 February 2019

Meet the Second Chance Hiker

I love people who do big, crazy things, and when my room mate introduced me to the Second Chance Hiker, I was immediately enthralled. 
Meet Cory, a man who recently embarked on the biggest adventure of his life: hiking the Pacific Crest Trail to lose 200 pounds. 

Friday, 22 February 2019

On being whoever you want to be

I keep buying long, flowy dresses, because I want to be the person who wears long, flowy dresses. I don't exactly have the kind of life that makes wearing dresses practical, with wearing scrubs for work and jeans around the farm, but then again, who said that life has to be practical all the time? I'm over being practical. I've always wanted to turn into an eccentric older lady, and I may as well start now. Wearing clothes for the simple reason to make yourself feel pretty seems decadent, but then again, could there be any better reason? 

Thursday, 21 February 2019

It's happening ...

It's happening. 
Two days ago we saw a robin. 
Yesterday I saw patches of dark peeking through the thinning snow cover on our roof. 

Five lambs were born over the last two weeks.
The dogs are shedding.

The patch of sky and trees I see through the window upon waking up in my little room away from home is getting lighter a little bit earlier every day:

We may barely see it yet, but nature is getting ready ...


... for spring!

Trust me, it's happening.

xoxo Miriam


Friday, 15 February 2019

What you can do to support a writer

Many years ago when I first started to blog (which was in March of 2013, so my 6th anniversary is coming up soon!), I read a post from another blogger talking about how you can support bloggers. I don't remember who it was, but I do know that it was one of the "big ones", meaning one of those fabled creatures who called themselves "full-time bloggers" and made money with blogging. At the time, this was a huge, unachievable dream to me, and I was in complete awe of these incredible people who managed to turn their hobby into a business.

Several years (and many a soul-searching session) later, I have found my own recipe for success, which for me is working a job I enjoy, blogging for fun, and writing articles and books because I go crazy when I'm not.

Wednesday, 13 February 2019

Let's all take a break from improving ourselves

I read the most interesting article yesterday: Improving Ourselves to Death by Alexandra Schwartz. The article is from a year ago, but still relevant today, I think even more so. The author is taking a critical look at our current obsession with improving every aspect of our lives: not only the physical (gotta get slimmer, stronger and healthier!) but also the spiritual (align those chakras!) and emotional (hi mindfulness✌) aspects.  

Saturday, 9 February 2019

Marriage is not all hearts and smiling couple selfies

Marriage is beautiful, but sometimes it isn't.

Sometimes marriage is getting so irritated at the thing he has done a thousand times and you should be used to it by now but today you just can't handle it, you feel like you're going to explode.
Sometimes marriage is wondering how many people have gotten divorced because their spouse never put the cap back on the toothpaste. 
(Is that the 'irreconcilable difference' celebrity couples talk about when they get divorced? Toothpaste caps?)

Monday, 4 February 2019

How I beat the January-blues

I've just spent my first night in the She Shed! I can't believe that I haven't done it sooner, it was so cozy! We're keeping the cats in there during the arctic temperatures we're having right now (it was -21 degrees Celsius last night/-6 F), and since it's being heated with a wood stove I slept there to keep the fire going all night. It was very much like my old teenage fantasies about rugged-Canadian living, I loved it! Apart from the fact that the cats tried to eat my toes several times throughout the night, and the little boy Louis licked my eyelids this morning which is a very strange sensation 😂  

Thursday, 31 January 2019

Embracing the middle-age spread

I don't know if it's because I turned 39 last month or the fact that I spent the majority of the second half of 2018 lying supine, eating candy, but one thing is clear: my body is changing. My hips have gotten wider, there's a permanent roll on my tummy when I'm sitting down, and my cellulite is starting to spread to the front of my thighs. I also recently noticed that I seem to have a tiny roll/skin fold/third bum cheek? under my right buttock, which feels very strange but also kinda hilarious.


Thursday, 24 January 2019

Hey, you gonna be okay

We have reached this stage of winter where crisis mode is setting in. Over the last few days I've had conversations with five different people about how hard everything is, which is a clear sign that everybody is struggling right now.
Here's what I want you all to remember: it will get better. Spring will arrive eventually, and until it does grab your favourite dog/cat/kid/human/pillow and get some extra cuddles in.

Sunday, 20 January 2019

Yoga for flexibility

As some of you may know, I have two big fitness-goals this year: handstand and splits. I've been working towards both on and off since 2015, but since I barely did yoga last year I have lots of work to do.
A note on that: I don't believe in beating myself up about the past. I could be mad about "putting myself behind" by not practicing last year, but what would be the point of that? It doesn't change anything, except that I'd feel bad about myself.  Nope, there's no point at all. 
We go through different seasons in life, and we won't always be able to do everything we'd like to do, and that's okay. 

Thursday, 17 January 2019

The Mental Health Tag

Lauren from This Stuff is Golden recently participated in the mental health tag, and I liked the questions they asked, so I'm doing it too. 

1. What is your mental health issue?
I have depression and Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder (PMDD).

Wednesday, 16 January 2019

Life with Lily

We have a lot of dogs. Always have, always will. Dogs are family to us, and we like having a big family. In my opinion, there's no other creature in the world that spreads as much joy and makes you feel as happy as dogs do. They are exuberantly excited to see you every single day! They never hold grudges! They are the true masters of living in the present and loving life, and surrounding yourself with that infectious quality is life-enriching.

I love them all equally, just like a parent loves their children equally. But just like a parent, I have my own special relationship with each one of them, and today, I want to focus on my relationship with Lily. Because Lily is special.


Sunday, 13 January 2019

Learning to be bored

Can I make a confession? I get pretty bored on these weekends when I'm away from home. The town is so small there is literally nothing to do, and since I have to be at the hospital within 20 minutes when they call me in I can't just head outside of town. It feels a bit like I'm under house arrest, and sometimes that does strange things to your mind. 

Wednesday, 9 January 2019

We can all stop trying so hard

Have you noticed? There is something in the air. Over the past week I've read several blog posts and articles about giving the collective middle finger to the hustle, and I'm all for it. My first newsletter of the year is about quitting the hustle, about less doing and more being, and I'm pumped that I'm not the only one who feels that way! It feels like a small revolution is brewing, and I say it's about damn time.

Friday, 4 January 2019

Stand tall

It's day 4 of the brand-spanking new year, and this is what's happened so far: I received 4 books of poems in the mail from one of the best-known contemporary poets in Germany who I went to school with. She has her own Wikipedia page! I'm completely in awe of her and her creative genius. Thank you Nora! A thank-you note is on its way to you. 
Yes, I wrote a thank-you note. I love thank-you notes, they are so old-fashioned and classy, and I intend to write more this year. 
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