My biggest mistake

I skipped yet another day of Blogtember yesterday - I didn't review anything. Oops! As an easy copout (and because my type A personality can't handle missing two topics - I also skipped the creative writing one), here is one I wrote a while ago: Paths of Glory, a book and audiobook review. Two in one, I hope that makes up for not posting a new one yesterday.

Moving on to today's theme: Write about a time you screwed up - a mistake you made.

Generally I'm a firm believer that all mistakes are lessons to be learned and should not be regretted.

However.

There is one mistake I make over and over, and it really bothers me.
I let other people influence my happiness.

It is weirdly important to me that people like me. And when I feel like they don't then I think something is wrong with me. I've been working on this for years now, and sometimes I think I'm getting the hang of not caring what people think - but then someone unfriends me on facebook and I'm hurt. Pathetic, I know, and I actually typed and erased this a few times - but I might as well admit to it. Does anybody else feel like that or is it just me?

I hate the thought that friends might talk bad about me. I know I can't change it and it shouldn't bother me, but it does. Bummer.
You should see my Pinterest board just sayin' - it is filled with motivational stuff like this one:

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So yeah, that's the mistake I make over and over again.
But I'm working on it.

I guess I've been in a bit of a funk the last couple of days. Two angsty posts in a row? Yikes! I promise tomorrow's will be happier.

Love always, Miriam